Move in Day

We brought Justin to college today. He is so happy to be there. I am happy for him. It is hard not to have mixed feelings though. I think I have been in denial about his departure for months, since before high school graduation.  I know it is a normal, healthy part of life that he grows up and has a desire to get the hell away from me.
   I am trying to focus on the good aspects of his moving out. He is going to make new friends, and study interesting subjects, learn to be his own person and find his place in this world.
        I will try not to pause in front of the bookcase in the laundry room that holds all his old story books and boardgames. I won't take down Danny And The Dinosaur, flip through the pages and think how he was only three when he could read the whole book. I won't try to recall the last time we played Yahtzee or Candyland or Monopoly or Risk. I will definitely not allow myself to think way back to when he was an infant just a couple of days old in his bassinet late at night not making a peep just staring up at me with his wide curious eyes.